It's that special time of the year again when we all seem to be happier and kinder with others. We, as a collective whole, are more willing to forgive and move on onto bigger and better things. That is not the case at my house today. There is a sense of melancholy that has fallen over my little home today. I'm not sure if it's because of the girls not being here or if it because neither want to talk to us. I know that Piper is just having fun and being a kid and is excited for tomorrow, but it cuts when she's just not interested in talking to me at all. With Kelsie, she's just not here this year and can't wait to leave. I was listening to Cat Stevens Wild World and thought of her. I am at a loss as to how to make it right. And I know that it's not really up to me to fix it. I think that part makes me sad.
I was looking at the tree this morning and it dawned on me that I am a very materialistic when it comes to the holidays. I have everything that I need in my life. I have a great family and I love them all so much. I have a vehicle that works and gets me to where we need to be. I have a job an it's only getting better for me. But, still, the tree is lovely but there isn't anything under it and there isn't going to be. The stockings are hung and it looks so beautiful, and they will remain empty. It's all good, I have had years like this before but not quite like this. And if I recall, I was kind of bummed about it still. But, it's all good. I know that the whole idea of the day isn't about getting stuff, but, I wish I could give more to the ones that I love. I want to create the kind of memories that my parents did for us. And they had four kids to buy for. I know that I will be doing more shopping with layaway more than once this next year. I have no clue what the rest of this day will bring or what's in store for Thomas and I tomorrow. I have ideas that would be great like, a mental vacation with good food and great music and maybe something funny to watch. I don't see that happening, but that would be nice. Anyhow, enough sad shit. I think I will finish wrapping and then go do some food shopping for tomorrow and then, drink. I am thinking wine is in store for me and who knows what else.
I have yet to really reach any of my goals that I set for myself this past year. I do know that had my computer not died, I would have done more writing. I am going to finish the book idea I have this coming year. It will be done by my birthday. And I will have to think of other goals for the year too, but, that's the big one. I can do this. This is the last year I will be living in this apartment for the holidays and I will have my house. We will be there next year and I am excited about it. Good things are happening all the time for me.
I put on my favorite movie to make the day seem better and I love the music in it. I think the ocean is calling my name. Soon! I have to be there soon, I need it. Anyhow, I have things to do today, so, Happy Christmas to all, and to all, a good night! Peace
Tuesday, December 24, 2013
Wednesday, December 18, 2013
8 pieces of 9
I had said recently that I would be writing about the summer after I graduated, so I thought I would get that done. It really, for me was about a huge change that took place for me. I was in a whole new world and I was loving it. It really did change the course of my life, and I am so glad that it all happened.
That summer was going to be awesome!! A week after graduating high school, I was going to Europe for 6 weeks. And holy cow, was I stoked about it! First of all, 6 weeks of not working, who can not be happy about that. I was so looking forward to it. There was going to be so much fun, I couldn't hardly wait. However, there was that thing about flying over the big blue pond. I know for me, I would dream about crashing into the water and dying a slow horrible death, being eaten by a ferocious school of hammerhead sharks. Funny now that I think of it really.
So, just before I left the country for the second time, I helped my mom plant our garden. It was going to massive this year. We had onions and zucchinis and all sorts of other things that I don't like to eat. I remember we had gotten me some new clothes, tanks and pants and I was wearing one of the new tanks while planting, it didn't go all the way to my but when I leaned over, so there was this really pretty red line on my back side. Ouch!
When we left Arizona, we took a non-stop flight to Germany, then an hour flight to Munich. Since we left in the morning, we got there in the afternoon and the flight was about 10 hours long. Talk about super tired when we got there. I know that we got to our hotel rooms, and all of us wanted to sleep, but, we weren't allowed to. We were to go out sight seeing until evening, and then we could finally sleep. I have no idea what we did that day. I don't even remember who I was rooming with the first few nights. Mostly, I think they were friends of Lexi's but, then, most of the German club loved my sister and thought I was a total wack job. And they were all mad at me because I snore... like I could help that. The first few days, we spent in Munich were so much fun. It was the first time that I had ever ridden on the subway and we went to go see so many different museums and saw so much, it was a blast.
Our next stop was somewhere else. I think we went to Austria, to Vienna... I could be wrong, it could have been Saltzberg too.. Anyhow, it was an amazing time. After spending a few days there, we went to Slovakia to Spišské Podhradie. A small village at the base of one of the oldest castles in Western Europe, although, I would say we were getting more into the eastern block. We were to be staying with families... with another person from our group. I got to stay with this amazing family and a girl that didn't like me very much. Maybe we were too much alike, but, for whatever reason, she and I did not ever get along... From the first time that we ever had to interact with each other. And she made it a point to make sure that I knew how much she disliked me. I wanted nothing more than to have a good time and enjoy the place that we were in, and it just didn't happen. Not only that, we were to sleep in the same bed. Lucky us. (To this day, whenever I say something to the effect of I wouldn't wish that on my worst enemy, she's the one that I think of. Though, I don't wish anything bad for Holly, I have found that life is hard enough and I don't know what her walk is about. I do hope for good things for her and that she's happy... Most of the time that is >:) It was a hard few days that we had to deal with and we got through it, though, at the time, it was the worst thing in the world for her. The castle was so neat. It was in ruins but it held so much magic in the air that it was nearly tangible. I was in awe of the whole place and what it was and what it had once been. Today, to see pictures of the castle and realize that I have been there, is so cool. I still find it hard to believe that I was there! I have seen it! I wish I could still see that in my dreams instead of trying to find aft diesel, but, that's another story.
With the castle behind us, we headed back west towards Austria again, and this time, we were stopping in the capital of Slovakia, Bratislava. Once again, I got to room with Holly and this time, she was really not happy about having to share a room with me. I mean, I snore and she jut couldn't handle it. I tried to apologize and move rooms, but, I don't remember if that happened or not. All I know was that I was miserable and wishing things were different. We got settled into our rooms and we went to the ballet one of the nights we were there. I was so excited to go, I haven't actually gone to the ballet since then. We went to go see Swan Lake. It was so pretty and so neat, I was in love. I didn't even care if I was on the trip from hell with the wicked witch of the west. We went to eat at a place, I think it was called the Spaghetti House, I'm not too sure about that, and I remember having crystal glasses that we were playing with. Once again, I am sure I was the one in trouble for it. Next our trip took us to Saltzberg... I think. Spent a few days there, went to the salt mines, saw the house where they shot the film The Sound of Music, sat on the wall of the fortress that sits above the city... got in trouble for sitting on the wall too. Got to see where Mozart was born, sat in the cafe just across it in fact. Saw the chapel they used in the wedding scene of The Sound Of Music. It was so magical for me. Despite other factors that could have made it a bad trip.
At last, our journey with the traveling part of the time was coming to a close and soon we were going to be with our host families from the school that we had a partnership with. I was going to stay with Annina and her family, I was so relieved to be done with the traveling all the time. We traveled a lot of the time by train, so, that was nice, and soon, we were there. That first night that she came to pick me up was, fun. She picked me up and we drove to the mountains where we went to a party with some of her friends. I met her boyfriend, Daniel. It was good times. I can say that as far as the things that we weren't suppose to do, no smoking, no drinking, obviously no drugs and certainly no sex allowed, I never did any drugs while I was there. I was bad, yes, I slept with a dude one of the first nights, and I have never regretted that, for the whole of my life thus far!!! The place, the weather, the time of year, everything was like a dream, just surreal and beautiful. Anyhow, as far as being a good exchange student goes, maybe I wasn't the best. But, I had a hell of a good time! I tell people if you ever get the chance to go and see other places like that, do it! Always do it!!! You will never regret it.
The time that I spent there is mostly a blur for me now. Not because I was drunk, (like being in the Navy) but because it's been a while, and details tend to get somewhat fuzzy for me. I know that I have it written down somewhere, but, I am not too sure where that journal is at, at the present time. I do remember calling home towards the end of my stay and talking to Lexi, (I wished so much that she was there with me, it just wasn't fair that she wasn't) and she was telling me about Rainbow People who were on the mountain and they were like hippies and I remember thinking that I wanted to be there so I could go experience these Rainbow people. And little things I remember, like, watching the news and they were talking about President Bill Clinton and the newscasters started to laugh... And the music... I can still listen to it, and think of all the people that I met while I was there. It was the time of my life, and I look back at it with a lot of fond memories. Like Paris and eating Creme Brulee there. Or seeing Norte Dame and walking in it. Or the feel of the rain on my face or the black forest or the Stihl school. But then I came home, and that was the beginning of the most fun I had ever had with my sister, besides A school... But, that's for another time, and wow... what a time it was :)
That summer was going to be awesome!! A week after graduating high school, I was going to Europe for 6 weeks. And holy cow, was I stoked about it! First of all, 6 weeks of not working, who can not be happy about that. I was so looking forward to it. There was going to be so much fun, I couldn't hardly wait. However, there was that thing about flying over the big blue pond. I know for me, I would dream about crashing into the water and dying a slow horrible death, being eaten by a ferocious school of hammerhead sharks. Funny now that I think of it really.
So, just before I left the country for the second time, I helped my mom plant our garden. It was going to massive this year. We had onions and zucchinis and all sorts of other things that I don't like to eat. I remember we had gotten me some new clothes, tanks and pants and I was wearing one of the new tanks while planting, it didn't go all the way to my but when I leaned over, so there was this really pretty red line on my back side. Ouch!
When we left Arizona, we took a non-stop flight to Germany, then an hour flight to Munich. Since we left in the morning, we got there in the afternoon and the flight was about 10 hours long. Talk about super tired when we got there. I know that we got to our hotel rooms, and all of us wanted to sleep, but, we weren't allowed to. We were to go out sight seeing until evening, and then we could finally sleep. I have no idea what we did that day. I don't even remember who I was rooming with the first few nights. Mostly, I think they were friends of Lexi's but, then, most of the German club loved my sister and thought I was a total wack job. And they were all mad at me because I snore... like I could help that. The first few days, we spent in Munich were so much fun. It was the first time that I had ever ridden on the subway and we went to go see so many different museums and saw so much, it was a blast.
Our next stop was somewhere else. I think we went to Austria, to Vienna... I could be wrong, it could have been Saltzberg too.. Anyhow, it was an amazing time. After spending a few days there, we went to Slovakia to Spišské Podhradie. A small village at the base of one of the oldest castles in Western Europe, although, I would say we were getting more into the eastern block. We were to be staying with families... with another person from our group. I got to stay with this amazing family and a girl that didn't like me very much. Maybe we were too much alike, but, for whatever reason, she and I did not ever get along... From the first time that we ever had to interact with each other. And she made it a point to make sure that I knew how much she disliked me. I wanted nothing more than to have a good time and enjoy the place that we were in, and it just didn't happen. Not only that, we were to sleep in the same bed. Lucky us. (To this day, whenever I say something to the effect of I wouldn't wish that on my worst enemy, she's the one that I think of. Though, I don't wish anything bad for Holly, I have found that life is hard enough and I don't know what her walk is about. I do hope for good things for her and that she's happy... Most of the time that is >:) It was a hard few days that we had to deal with and we got through it, though, at the time, it was the worst thing in the world for her. The castle was so neat. It was in ruins but it held so much magic in the air that it was nearly tangible. I was in awe of the whole place and what it was and what it had once been. Today, to see pictures of the castle and realize that I have been there, is so cool. I still find it hard to believe that I was there! I have seen it! I wish I could still see that in my dreams instead of trying to find aft diesel, but, that's another story.
With the castle behind us, we headed back west towards Austria again, and this time, we were stopping in the capital of Slovakia, Bratislava. Once again, I got to room with Holly and this time, she was really not happy about having to share a room with me. I mean, I snore and she jut couldn't handle it. I tried to apologize and move rooms, but, I don't remember if that happened or not. All I know was that I was miserable and wishing things were different. We got settled into our rooms and we went to the ballet one of the nights we were there. I was so excited to go, I haven't actually gone to the ballet since then. We went to go see Swan Lake. It was so pretty and so neat, I was in love. I didn't even care if I was on the trip from hell with the wicked witch of the west. We went to eat at a place, I think it was called the Spaghetti House, I'm not too sure about that, and I remember having crystal glasses that we were playing with. Once again, I am sure I was the one in trouble for it. Next our trip took us to Saltzberg... I think. Spent a few days there, went to the salt mines, saw the house where they shot the film The Sound of Music, sat on the wall of the fortress that sits above the city... got in trouble for sitting on the wall too. Got to see where Mozart was born, sat in the cafe just across it in fact. Saw the chapel they used in the wedding scene of The Sound Of Music. It was so magical for me. Despite other factors that could have made it a bad trip.
At last, our journey with the traveling part of the time was coming to a close and soon we were going to be with our host families from the school that we had a partnership with. I was going to stay with Annina and her family, I was so relieved to be done with the traveling all the time. We traveled a lot of the time by train, so, that was nice, and soon, we were there. That first night that she came to pick me up was, fun. She picked me up and we drove to the mountains where we went to a party with some of her friends. I met her boyfriend, Daniel. It was good times. I can say that as far as the things that we weren't suppose to do, no smoking, no drinking, obviously no drugs and certainly no sex allowed, I never did any drugs while I was there. I was bad, yes, I slept with a dude one of the first nights, and I have never regretted that, for the whole of my life thus far!!! The place, the weather, the time of year, everything was like a dream, just surreal and beautiful. Anyhow, as far as being a good exchange student goes, maybe I wasn't the best. But, I had a hell of a good time! I tell people if you ever get the chance to go and see other places like that, do it! Always do it!!! You will never regret it.
The time that I spent there is mostly a blur for me now. Not because I was drunk, (like being in the Navy) but because it's been a while, and details tend to get somewhat fuzzy for me. I know that I have it written down somewhere, but, I am not too sure where that journal is at, at the present time. I do remember calling home towards the end of my stay and talking to Lexi, (I wished so much that she was there with me, it just wasn't fair that she wasn't) and she was telling me about Rainbow People who were on the mountain and they were like hippies and I remember thinking that I wanted to be there so I could go experience these Rainbow people. And little things I remember, like, watching the news and they were talking about President Bill Clinton and the newscasters started to laugh... And the music... I can still listen to it, and think of all the people that I met while I was there. It was the time of my life, and I look back at it with a lot of fond memories. Like Paris and eating Creme Brulee there. Or seeing Norte Dame and walking in it. Or the feel of the rain on my face or the black forest or the Stihl school. But then I came home, and that was the beginning of the most fun I had ever had with my sister, besides A school... But, that's for another time, and wow... what a time it was :)
Wednesday, December 11, 2013
My Own Sense of Greed
Some of you know, that I love having money. I really love to spend money. I love that money is a tool used to buy the things that I need... like, my contacts and eyeliner and things that I think I need like work clothes and shoes, even sheets to make sure that my clients don't have to smell rancid oil on sheets.
I love what money can buy. Think about it, I mean, money can do wonders for us. It can get the things that I need to in order to get by in life. Like toilet paper and food and things like that. It can also buy the things that I want to have, like Lasik eye surgery and a new home and cars. It can help me to buy the land that I want so I can build the roller skating rink and indoor skate park that I feel would be a huge thing for the entire community that I live in.
I would like to have more money than what I do. I know that it's happening and that the universe is aligning for me so I can have my happily ever after, and I have faith that it's happening right now, as I write. I have spent a lot of money on being able to align my energy with the correct vibration of the flow of money. I have spent money on Feng Shui stuff to help get the flow right to my door, I have spent money on clearing my energy blocks so that I am in alignment with situations that may arise to help get me what I want. I have spent a lot of money on being able to get more money. I have this thing that I'm sure other people do, and that's that I would really like to not live under the poverty line. I keep my chin up and say that good things are happening, instead of they are going to happen. I say that I can afford the house that I want to buy, and that I can afford to buy Kelsie and Thomas and I all new vehicles. I put a lot of time and energy into this whole money thing.
It got me to thinking the other day about my body and the way that I really don't take the best care of my body. What if I put this same amount of time and energy into getting my body to look the way that I want it to, instead of putting it into making more money. So I started to ask myself, what if, the secret to wealth laid in my body looking like I want it to? What if, I told myself that I could have all that wealth, if I took the time in the day to take care of my body the way that it deserves to be taken care of? I wondered this for a few days, and it occurred to me, that I bet I could convince myself of this, so much so, that I could fool myself into a new good habit. How strange that I would have to tell myself this in order to get my body to look like I would like it to.
So now what? I have said all throughout the year that I was going to take care of body and that I would be able to do this, but I have really not done a damn thing about it. So, I am saying this, to reaffirm this with myself and those who think I am a total lunitic :) I know that once my body looks like the way that I feel on the inside, all glowy and happy and thin and beautiful, that is when my money will finally show up. It's all about me doing what I should have done in the first place. Put my health first and then worry about the rest of everything. After all, Wonder Woman cannot go saving the planet from bad guys if she has no energy and can't do anything because she feels like shit.
I have a plan, I found it online today in fact. It's a hybrid program of two workout routines that I have. It starts on a Monday, with two days off, and I really like that idea. I know that I am picking a strange time to start doing this, but, what the hell, now is as good of a time as any. I have only fat to lose and a lot to gain in the process. And if truth be told, I was really wanting to do this because of something that I kind of discovered about myself. I have the look of a 50's style pin-up girl. So, I have been combing through different sites on the Internet to find pictures that I like. And I have saved them. I want to do a photo session with some of these awesome poses. And I want them to go viral, and I want those boys who never thought much of me to see it and go, whoa, wow...!!! That's the goal at least. For the ones who thought, oh she's cute if she lost a few pounds or she's got a pretty face, but, she's a chunky girl, I want them to see these photos and have a moment where they totally kick themselves in the butt for ever being a shit head to me.... If that makes me vain, then so be it, I'm vain! Oh well for all I care! I want to be someone to me! Not really to these other bozos who didn't know how to handle me, but, for me. I want to have an office with a huge photo of me on the wall that when my girls have their friends come over, they are just like, whoa, is that you're mom? I want to be Stacey's Mom!!! But like, Piper's mom :)
I don't have these hopes that I'm going to be some sort of famous person for these photos, I want to be remembered for something else that I have in mind, I want them to show myself that I can do it. I am worth the time and effort and energy that it takes to get to be where I want to be.
So, that's pretty much it today. My own sense of greed is somewhat odd, but, I think that it's a good kind of greed... A desire to get to my next level of myself. Maybe that makes sense, maybe that doesn't, but, to me, it does. And in the mornings I wake up and lay in bed for a few minutes thinking to myself, you are beautiful, you are worth it, you can afford to buy the things that you want, you can do this! Monday I put all these ideas into practice and I will see what happens with it. I am hoping that by the first of the year, I will have something to show for it, and instead of thinking I am going to start something, I will already be doing it. Here goes, thinking good thoughts now... Time to do Christmas stuff now, Peace...
I love what money can buy. Think about it, I mean, money can do wonders for us. It can get the things that I need to in order to get by in life. Like toilet paper and food and things like that. It can also buy the things that I want to have, like Lasik eye surgery and a new home and cars. It can help me to buy the land that I want so I can build the roller skating rink and indoor skate park that I feel would be a huge thing for the entire community that I live in.
I would like to have more money than what I do. I know that it's happening and that the universe is aligning for me so I can have my happily ever after, and I have faith that it's happening right now, as I write. I have spent a lot of money on being able to align my energy with the correct vibration of the flow of money. I have spent money on Feng Shui stuff to help get the flow right to my door, I have spent money on clearing my energy blocks so that I am in alignment with situations that may arise to help get me what I want. I have spent a lot of money on being able to get more money. I have this thing that I'm sure other people do, and that's that I would really like to not live under the poverty line. I keep my chin up and say that good things are happening, instead of they are going to happen. I say that I can afford the house that I want to buy, and that I can afford to buy Kelsie and Thomas and I all new vehicles. I put a lot of time and energy into this whole money thing.
It got me to thinking the other day about my body and the way that I really don't take the best care of my body. What if I put this same amount of time and energy into getting my body to look the way that I want it to, instead of putting it into making more money. So I started to ask myself, what if, the secret to wealth laid in my body looking like I want it to? What if, I told myself that I could have all that wealth, if I took the time in the day to take care of my body the way that it deserves to be taken care of? I wondered this for a few days, and it occurred to me, that I bet I could convince myself of this, so much so, that I could fool myself into a new good habit. How strange that I would have to tell myself this in order to get my body to look like I would like it to.
So now what? I have said all throughout the year that I was going to take care of body and that I would be able to do this, but I have really not done a damn thing about it. So, I am saying this, to reaffirm this with myself and those who think I am a total lunitic :) I know that once my body looks like the way that I feel on the inside, all glowy and happy and thin and beautiful, that is when my money will finally show up. It's all about me doing what I should have done in the first place. Put my health first and then worry about the rest of everything. After all, Wonder Woman cannot go saving the planet from bad guys if she has no energy and can't do anything because she feels like shit.
I have a plan, I found it online today in fact. It's a hybrid program of two workout routines that I have. It starts on a Monday, with two days off, and I really like that idea. I know that I am picking a strange time to start doing this, but, what the hell, now is as good of a time as any. I have only fat to lose and a lot to gain in the process. And if truth be told, I was really wanting to do this because of something that I kind of discovered about myself. I have the look of a 50's style pin-up girl. So, I have been combing through different sites on the Internet to find pictures that I like. And I have saved them. I want to do a photo session with some of these awesome poses. And I want them to go viral, and I want those boys who never thought much of me to see it and go, whoa, wow...!!! That's the goal at least. For the ones who thought, oh she's cute if she lost a few pounds or she's got a pretty face, but, she's a chunky girl, I want them to see these photos and have a moment where they totally kick themselves in the butt for ever being a shit head to me.... If that makes me vain, then so be it, I'm vain! Oh well for all I care! I want to be someone to me! Not really to these other bozos who didn't know how to handle me, but, for me. I want to have an office with a huge photo of me on the wall that when my girls have their friends come over, they are just like, whoa, is that you're mom? I want to be Stacey's Mom!!! But like, Piper's mom :)
I don't have these hopes that I'm going to be some sort of famous person for these photos, I want to be remembered for something else that I have in mind, I want them to show myself that I can do it. I am worth the time and effort and energy that it takes to get to be where I want to be.
So, that's pretty much it today. My own sense of greed is somewhat odd, but, I think that it's a good kind of greed... A desire to get to my next level of myself. Maybe that makes sense, maybe that doesn't, but, to me, it does. And in the mornings I wake up and lay in bed for a few minutes thinking to myself, you are beautiful, you are worth it, you can afford to buy the things that you want, you can do this! Monday I put all these ideas into practice and I will see what happens with it. I am hoping that by the first of the year, I will have something to show for it, and instead of thinking I am going to start something, I will already be doing it. Here goes, thinking good thoughts now... Time to do Christmas stuff now, Peace...
Tuesday, December 10, 2013
The Sauna
In our office, we have got a new Infra-Red Sauna. I am loving this, mainly because when it's like 19 degrees outside, I am nice and warm and toasty at 112 degrees... until I walk out of the sauna and I realize that there is like a 42 degree difference in the office. I think that I will have to go back to my cave for a while to completely warm up.
On Facebook yesterday, I was ranting about some of the things that I am seeing all over the Internet. Things like, signs saying, God Hates Fags (this was on a Salvation Army sign with the bell ringers with smiles on their faces). I don't understand this. I keep trying to point out to people that this book they keep quoting also says that God is love, and treat others the way you wanted to be treated. I don't see this message going out this Christmas. Why? Don't we want to see messages of love and good will towards men and that kind of thing? Don't we want to be able to help those in need? Why is it 'good Christians' only want to help the ones who they approve of, like certain homeless people. What if that homeless person is gay? Do you tell them, "I'm sorry, we can't help you because your life doesn't match up to what a book has told me to believe." Sure seems that way to me. I can honestly say I will no longer be donating to ANY organization that openly discriminates against anyone. That book that you all seem to quote says to love others and if you can't do that part of the book, I am going to tell you all to go fuck yourselves!!
I have noticed that Safeway has started to carry Del-Monty bananas. They are smaller then the normal Chiquita bananas that we like and I was thinking, oh cool, smaller ones, they are cute. NOPE!! Every single one of them that I have peeled, have been bruised all the way through. I even tried to carry them super nicely and not throw them and not let Piper carry them, and nope that's not helping either. I would like to lodge a complaint with star command with this one... Bring back Chiquita Bananas!!!
Saturday night, Thomas and I were at the store and I was so excited that I found StrongBow, it was too expensive for a 4 pack of cans... and I got instead, a 12 pack of Sam Adams, their winter stuff. They have this kind of beer, Chocolate Cherry Bock, all I can say is wow!! So freaking good!! I think we should all have some of that stuff!
I have court two times coming up in this next two months. One is for Thomas's child support and the other is with the car. I am also hoping that when the USDA gets around to going over our apartment lease, they will find what we have been telling them, that we overpaid our rent for more than a year and we need to be reimbursed. That is what I am thinking is going to happen... I am hopeful at least. Anyhow, I think I have to get off the computer, I am using the one at work while on my lunch break to do my writing, since I don't have the Internet at my house right now and we have no computers that are in working order. I keep thinking that Santa will bring me a new computer, but, who knows with that one. I asked him for a house and new cars for me and Thomas and Kelsie... I guess I will have to just wait and see. Until the next time, Peace <3 :="" p="">
On Facebook yesterday, I was ranting about some of the things that I am seeing all over the Internet. Things like, signs saying, God Hates Fags (this was on a Salvation Army sign with the bell ringers with smiles on their faces). I don't understand this. I keep trying to point out to people that this book they keep quoting also says that God is love, and treat others the way you wanted to be treated. I don't see this message going out this Christmas. Why? Don't we want to see messages of love and good will towards men and that kind of thing? Don't we want to be able to help those in need? Why is it 'good Christians' only want to help the ones who they approve of, like certain homeless people. What if that homeless person is gay? Do you tell them, "I'm sorry, we can't help you because your life doesn't match up to what a book has told me to believe." Sure seems that way to me. I can honestly say I will no longer be donating to ANY organization that openly discriminates against anyone. That book that you all seem to quote says to love others and if you can't do that part of the book, I am going to tell you all to go fuck yourselves!!
I have noticed that Safeway has started to carry Del-Monty bananas. They are smaller then the normal Chiquita bananas that we like and I was thinking, oh cool, smaller ones, they are cute. NOPE!! Every single one of them that I have peeled, have been bruised all the way through. I even tried to carry them super nicely and not throw them and not let Piper carry them, and nope that's not helping either. I would like to lodge a complaint with star command with this one... Bring back Chiquita Bananas!!!
Saturday night, Thomas and I were at the store and I was so excited that I found StrongBow, it was too expensive for a 4 pack of cans... and I got instead, a 12 pack of Sam Adams, their winter stuff. They have this kind of beer, Chocolate Cherry Bock, all I can say is wow!! So freaking good!! I think we should all have some of that stuff!
I have court two times coming up in this next two months. One is for Thomas's child support and the other is with the car. I am also hoping that when the USDA gets around to going over our apartment lease, they will find what we have been telling them, that we overpaid our rent for more than a year and we need to be reimbursed. That is what I am thinking is going to happen... I am hopeful at least. Anyhow, I think I have to get off the computer, I am using the one at work while on my lunch break to do my writing, since I don't have the Internet at my house right now and we have no computers that are in working order. I keep thinking that Santa will bring me a new computer, but, who knows with that one. I asked him for a house and new cars for me and Thomas and Kelsie... I guess I will have to just wait and see. Until the next time, Peace <3 :="" p="">
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