This week, there is so much going on that I have decided that I no longer want to see it. I have deleted the app off my phone, and I will still use messenger if I need to, but, for the most part, I think I am done with Facebook. Talk about a waste of time and energy. It's a vortex of things that I shouldn't be wasting my time with anymore. Or energy... With that being said, I will probably still go on once in a while to see what fun cat videos have been posted, or to post to my private group what I am working on with writing.
How did I come to this decision? After all, I have made this choice before, why do I think that I will be able to do it this time... What made me change my mind. Well, it's been a rough week at work. I have had the worst case of PMS in so many years that I can't remember feeling like this before. I feel like this gray cloud with all my sunshine just gone. I have no desire to really do anything, or whatever. There are many articles on what's going on in the world this week. The biggest one that I chose to tackle was the measles outbreak in California. They are saying that it's because some parents don't have their kids immunized and that's why we have these problems. It's all these parents' fault and we should make them outcasts of society. It's a hot topic and one that I feel strongly about. I am against immunizations. I have my reasons, and I chose to not have Piper immunized after about 14 or 15 months old. For now, she's considered to be safe. I put my feelings out there on this and I have never felt so attacked as I did yesterday. I was told that I am reckless, arrogant, selfish, ignorant, poorly educated and all sorts of things. I was felt totally insulted and degraded by people who are my family and friends. I don't need that kind of drama in my life. I just want to be happy. I made an informed decision about the health my child and they can say what they want, and I am not going to change their minds. Just like they aren't going to change my mind about it either.
For now, that's the way it is, and it's all good. I will find my voice instead, I will regain my sense of self and do what is best for me and my family. I understand risks and chances and after all of it was said and done, the only response I wanted to make, though I didn't, was fuck you. But that's how I feel. I will be writing a lot more now... so, until the next time, remember, your words hurt and what you say can affect others. Say kind things, and if you disagree then cool... but, I don't want to deal with that. Later cats... :)
